this old heart knows how to fly, better than any old bitter bird anything made to swallow the worm of truth anything that tried to fly with bruised wings anything that forced itself aflight beyond all sense and gravity;
stop trying. you'll hit the gloss of a pretty window again and again.
like a little bird, home too early for spring my heart juts out on this stiff little branch- i have my song, i know how to sing, i have my stiff little nest, i wonder why the branches are so hard to get together because this is home (isn't it home, why is it so cold) i sing at the top of my lungs i blurt out my heaviest hallelujah my song hits the snow and dies and i just sing come home, come home, until the snow takes me, too
branches and berries and songs of laughs and the cello sweep of weeping, you could love my laugh inside that tight intricate gypsy moth hammock- but you love it wild, across the brook like so many slippery stones, across the grass and heather where the bees stake their claim, across that knothole where I bravely knifed your name with fingernails alive with your flesh.
its snowing and my heart is weeping, i know you think it's just beating, it's a thump. thump. thump. no, it's an ache. ache. ache. I still taste you on my tongue, bitter and stinging as blinding, sideways snow I'm out here and tasting you even though it hurts. I'll hold you in a cup and cradle you in a spoon and you still hurt me. I'll put you in a bowl and taste you slow and you still hurt me. Maybe I was never ready for you? I still love, love you.
Hey everyone, I haven't been here for a while. I hope you are all doing well! To update on importantish stuff, at my last doc appt my blood pressure was way down! From 160/90 to 124/78. Seems my medication is working, I've also been taking kuzu (or kudzu, kuzu is the Japanese word for it) root for a few months. You can take it in capsules, but I've been just eating the little chunks of it in starch form. It's curbed my appetite for my other pica items (cornstarch, baking soda, pumice etc). So somehow I don't feel so weird now. If you didn't know I had pica before? Well, there you go. Ever since I was pregnant with Holden pica has been a part of my life.
We had a good Christmas, Holden got this awesome lego set that you can program to make different robots and cars and animals and stuff. He and Josh have been having a lot of fun with that. I love seeing the two of them play and work together, it makes me so happy.
Zander puppy hates the snow, no matter how many sweaters we put on him. Thank goodness for puppy pads and the fact that he's a small dog.
Love you all! If you are on FB, you can find me there (Jennifer Cooper Newton), especially if you play lexulous. <3
Is this thing on? If so, HAY everyone who is reading. (I first typed 'everyone is reading!' yay literacy!) Um, I may or may not have gotten some Goldschlager tonight. And by that I mean I DID and I am getting a little drunkerpants by now. So I am going to do that meme, if you comment here, I will say something nice or something I like or love about you... or something. Yeah. Do it, okay? Okay. Comment, and stuff.
I think I caught all of the typos, but some may have slipped through the little holes in the net. Hey, speaking of nets guys. this one piece of old wallpaper I haven't scraped off yet looks like a butterfly. Right by my desk. I might keep it.